An American filmmaker, actor, comedian, comic book writer, author, YouTuber, and podcaster Kevin Patrick Smith shared his state of mind and how he felt during therapy.
Kevin Smith wasn’t feeling well one morning last January and awoke in terror and started to lose his mind. The next day Smith got a checkup at Arizona’s Sierra Tucson treatment center according to the news and then spent the next month in intensive therapy. He learned how his several childhood traumas had led him here at this point.
“It was a scary, complete break from reality. At that moment, I wouldn’t have been averse to not being around any longer. I called a friend and said, ‘I’m in a weird, dark place. I need to go somewhere and get help.'” he said.
He was assaulted when he was just six years old an older boy forced him to perform sexual acts with a young neighborhood girl and this has left a psychological wound in Smith’s mind.
“I felt disgusting like I didn’t matter. That’s when ‘the other guy’ started to appear. I decided to be entertaining and make people love me before they noticed I was fat.” smith told.
“When a third party is instructing you to do something against your core values like that. that’s sexual abuse.” the therapist told Smith.
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